Things with my heart are settled down a bit. However when I think of what I lost my heart hits a hard beat. Thudding loudly against my chest as it squeezes tightly. I can feel the pain as it courses through my body.
I await the day when the thoughts of betrayal, love, heart, and desire of David seem not to cross into my brain. I love him and I know that was real. With every ounce of my life and being this was real. The most real thing I have ever felt. I hate what I have gone through I still have the hope that we are not done. No way we can be done. But before that can happen I need to not think of him. Or of what he's done. Or even of what we had. I need to heal I need to go days, weeks with out thinking of any part of him or it before I can heal. I can not move on or move forward until than in his words. "Misery".
A friend sent this to and it speaks volumes:
"....each day is, in a certain sense, a complete life by itself. It has its own duties, its own trial,its own burdens and its own needs. The very best we can do for the perfecting of our life as a whole, is to live the one day well. We should put all our thought and energy and skill into the duty of each day, wasting no strength, either in grieving over yesterday's failures -- or in anxiety about tomorrow's responsibilities." ~ J.R. Miller
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Trying
Things with my heart are settled down a bit. However when I think of what I lost my heart hits a hard beat. Thudding loudly against my chest as it squeezes tightly. I can feel the pain as it courses through my body.
I await the day when the thoughts of betrayal, love, heart, and desire of David seem not to cross into my brain. I love him and I know that was real. With every ounce of my life and being this was real. The most real thing I have ever felt. I hate what I have gone through I still have the hope that we are not done. No way we can be done. But before that can happen I need to not think of him. Or of what he's done. Or even of what we had. I need to heal I need to go days, weeks with out thinking of any part of him or it before I can heal. I can not move on or move forward until than in his words. "Misery".
A friend sent this to and it speaks volumes:
"....each day is, in a certain sense, a complete life by itself. It has its own duties, its own trial,its own burdens and its own needs. The very best we can do for the perfecting of our life as a whole, is to live the one day well. We should put all our thought and energy and skill into the duty of each day, wasting no strength, either in grieving over yesterday's failures -- or in anxiety about tomorrow's responsibilities." ~ J.R. Miller
I await the day when the thoughts of betrayal, love, heart, and desire of David seem not to cross into my brain. I love him and I know that was real. With every ounce of my life and being this was real. The most real thing I have ever felt. I hate what I have gone through I still have the hope that we are not done. No way we can be done. But before that can happen I need to not think of him. Or of what he's done. Or even of what we had. I need to heal I need to go days, weeks with out thinking of any part of him or it before I can heal. I can not move on or move forward until than in his words. "Misery".
A friend sent this to and it speaks volumes:
"....each day is, in a certain sense, a complete life by itself. It has its own duties, its own trial,its own burdens and its own needs. The very best we can do for the perfecting of our life as a whole, is to live the one day well. We should put all our thought and energy and skill into the duty of each day, wasting no strength, either in grieving over yesterday's failures -- or in anxiety about tomorrow's responsibilities." ~ J.R. Miller
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