Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Life in February

Well life is getting better. I hurt all the time. I been out on a few dates some bad some fairly fun. I'm putting my self out there and I'm trying to forget David. Really trying.

I'm living in Tualitian, Ore. As for location moves I'm happy with my choice to do so. Yes things have been an emotional roller coaster for me. But it's beautiful here. I been spending a lot of time at the local dog park. It's been nice to talk to random people.

This is one of the road routes to my work. It's an ok change. I just never wanna fall in love again!





Friday, February 15, 2013

To David

It's been one month not even a week some days are better than others today I find myself in a western bar with my roommate watching couples so in love it hurts. I know this isn't our scene. But seeing how in love others are pisses me off. I miss you and my heart yearns for what it is that we have.

There is too much shit in my life going to be so alone. Your a coward and a fool for your choices. People travel the world searching for the wonders if the world only to find them in their own back yards. You had what people search for.

I hate that deep down I can't let you go. I'm afraid of loosing you completely. I have been trying to put my self out there. I actually been on two dates with two different guys. I'm trying here. But the situation you left me in is aweful. Plain aweful.

I hope you search and look and never find what we have. Heal and fix your self. Do this all and come back to me.

Until than your a selfish fucking coward!

And this this is my ultimate low. This is my life. Now I'm just done.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Life

Well life has been throwing me so many curve balls when I have been playing hockey, that I don't know what's what any more.

Things have officially hit rock bottom. I will not go into the gross details. But I feel like I am below my lowest low. Even lower emotionally than California (this time with out the depression).

Things have been ruff. All I want is David to wrap his arms around me and kiss my neck. And wake up to Cory wanting to watch my little pony. These are what u crave for comfort! But David needs to grow the duck up! He needs to learn we have what everyone is searching for. This is what people date for. I hope he doesn't realize it too late. I need him in my life! But if I love him u need to set him free.

This time I am not sure of much but I do know that there is only one way to go. Up. Right. Man do I hope so!

Onwards and upwards! Life hand me a break soon! My mom needs one too if your handing them out.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Life in February

Well life is getting better. I hurt all the time. I been out on a few dates some bad some fairly fun. I'm putting my self out there and I'm trying to forget David. Really trying.

I'm living in Tualitian, Ore. As for location moves I'm happy with my choice to do so. Yes things have been an emotional roller coaster for me. But it's beautiful here. I been spending a lot of time at the local dog park. It's been nice to talk to random people.

This is one of the road routes to my work. It's an ok change. I just never wanna fall in love again!





Friday, February 15, 2013

To David

It's been one month not even a week some days are better than others today I find myself in a western bar with my roommate watching couples so in love it hurts. I know this isn't our scene. But seeing how in love others are pisses me off. I miss you and my heart yearns for what it is that we have.

There is too much shit in my life going to be so alone. Your a coward and a fool for your choices. People travel the world searching for the wonders if the world only to find them in their own back yards. You had what people search for.

I hate that deep down I can't let you go. I'm afraid of loosing you completely. I have been trying to put my self out there. I actually been on two dates with two different guys. I'm trying here. But the situation you left me in is aweful. Plain aweful.

I hope you search and look and never find what we have. Heal and fix your self. Do this all and come back to me.

Until than your a selfish fucking coward!

And this this is my ultimate low. This is my life. Now I'm just done.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Life

Well life has been throwing me so many curve balls when I have been playing hockey, that I don't know what's what any more.

Things have officially hit rock bottom. I will not go into the gross details. But I feel like I am below my lowest low. Even lower emotionally than California (this time with out the depression).

Things have been ruff. All I want is David to wrap his arms around me and kiss my neck. And wake up to Cory wanting to watch my little pony. These are what u crave for comfort! But David needs to grow the duck up! He needs to learn we have what everyone is searching for. This is what people date for. I hope he doesn't realize it too late. I need him in my life! But if I love him u need to set him free.

This time I am not sure of much but I do know that there is only one way to go. Up. Right. Man do I hope so!

Onwards and upwards! Life hand me a break soon! My mom needs one too if your handing them out.